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[Jun. 23rd, 2004|11:06 am] |
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I figure I'll write something here. Haven't figured out what yet, but I figured I should because I never do. Actually, now that I think about it, I'm not so sure as to why I actually need to update this at all.
Hmm.. I suppose I really don't. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|02:15 pm] |
Why do people complain when a movie isn't like the book?
Of course it's not. It's a movie. Say it with me now-- m-o-v-i-e! If you want it to be like the book, read the book. |
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[May. 8th, 2004|06:12 pm] |
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Ever ask questions just to ask questions? |
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| Mindless Self Promotion |
[May. 3rd, 2004|07:41 pm] |
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I made an icon journal. I haven't posted anything yet because it's taking a million years to upload all the icons I have so far. But I will. Oh, I will. |
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[May. 3rd, 2004|07:05 pm] |
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How do deaf people think? |
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| Talk Shit About Me. |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|01:08 am] |
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Da-amn. It's 1:00am. I blame the Internet's stupidity for keeping me awake. And this video is waking me up cause ninja fighting makes me hyper. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2004|08:08 pm] |
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I have to go pretend to be sociable now. Shoot me. Shoot me good. Like the song.. Ya know.. Yeah, cheers. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2004|07:51 pm] |
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I'm thinking of shooting myself so that jealousy does not become me. Why be jealous for something you don't even want? My psyche is having a fun time contradicting itself a lot lately and it's pissing me off, muchly. Do quit it. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2004|07:12 pm] |
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Because LiveJournal's missed me.
which member of nittle grasper are you? click here!
Haha! In your face, womanly men of Nittle Grasper! *shakes ass in a demonic fashion*
Actually, I quite like having no point to these entries, thanks muchly. Actually, from now on, why don't I say, thanks ever so, seeing as it's starting its way to the tip of my tounge. Just the tip of my mad vocab. Does that count as rhyming? Let's go right ahead and say it does.
I've decided I'll write until Lauren gets here, seeing as that's how long I have. And then I'll play Suikoden, probably, as I always end up playing random games while she is over. No one knows why. But it's probably because she'll be working on the costumes and I have no social skills, so games suit me just fine.
I'm starting to doubt that this entry will be longer than that other crazy long one. Damn. But I don't think I'll ever be able to top that one, unless I start singing again, which I don't think I will because I'm hating my playlist. Needa download new songs.
Holy crap. I will not get into some people's user names. Ya know, the ones that have little messages to other people and all capitals and exclimation marks and say how they're frustrated or, hey, look, I found this quote that's been everywhere forever, but it's really deep, don'tcha think? I'm I deep now too?
And now my mom's upstairs and such things make me too nervous to write, so adeu. |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2004|06:28 pm] |
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I'm sorry that I'm a nerd, but at least it has the possibility of being genetic. Either way, I quote:
"She's going to what?" said Molochai when Christian told them.
"Again?" said Twig. "What would we do with a baby?"
"We could eat it," Molochai offered.
Zillah grimaced. "Eat my baby! Are you mad?" After a moment's reflection he added, "Nothing and I might eat it, but you couldn't have any."
"Zilllllaaaah..."
"Pleeeeeezzze?..."
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[Feb. 23rd, 2004|12:36 pm] |
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Pay close attention
don't listen to me from now
George'll be flying this one
nd it's anyone?s guess how he does
this is the right turn wrong universe
taking me in full bloom
fireball careful with that
there see what you made me do
I must be dreaming or
we're onto something
I must be dreaming for
I don't fall in love lawlessly
I must be dreaming or
pinch me to waking
so undeniably yours
as long as I'm losing it so completely
Incendiary glance
be come and collide in me
Soon and in hearts oh
while I go helplessly sky high magic eye sugar rushing don't
i must be dreaming or we're onto something
hey just watcha make me for
i don't fall in love lawlessly
i must be dreaming or
pinch me to waking so undeniably yours
as long as i'm loosing it so completely
euphoria
i can't take any more of yah i'm losing it
i must be dreaming or we're onto something
hey just watcha make me for
I don't fall in love lawlessly
i must be dreaming or
pinch me to waking so undeniably yours
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[Feb. 23rd, 2004|12:30 pm] |
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Once again, this music video owns my soul. *purrrs* |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2004|11:11 pm] |
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Got a whale of a tale to tell ya, lads
A whale of a tale or two
'Bout the flappin' fish and the girls I've loved
On nights like this with the moon above
A whale of a tale and it's all true
I swear by my tattoo
And did you know
That when it snows
My eyes become large
And the lights that you shine can be seen
And now that the roses have bloomed
A light hits the gloom
On the grave
Or.. something
*song switch*
When I wake up
Yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
Does Ranma really have any dignity left?
I was only supposed to come online for a second. I have work to do. And however the rest of that went. I just needed to print up the script. And I was working so hard until I realized I only knew where the first page was anymore. *sigh* Well, sorta. The panels that bothered me, I sorta avoided doing. But I redid the character design (slightly) for one of the characters and they look so much better now. I couldn't stand the old picture.. *shudder* but now he looks now. Yay. And oddly like a prince, actually, which I wasn't intending, but I suppose is the whole point. now I'm going to skip many more panels with people that I haven't designed yet and go to places where I can somewhat picture them. Only.. Bah, I guess I can't get around making another character design, but at least it's not an old guy.. And.. What the hell did I do with the character profiles? Where did they go.. Bah.
Now I have tostitoes. Yum. I don't think I spelled that right.. Hmm.. The good thing about this is nooo one reads this. Or, few people do at least, so I can just ramble and not care about what it's about. Classy, eh?
Tomorrow I'm only in school for two periods. Fwee. I never have to sit with people at lunch again. Yay. Although.. That is slightly depressing, seeing as I already have no social skills.. *sigh* So much for getting what I want making me feel better.
No mice here, I'm afraid. Maybe some bats. Do cats eat bats? Do cats eat bats? Do bats eat cats? It's all in my head. It's a whale of a tale, I have. A whale of a tale indeed. Was that even the song they sung? Is sung a word? Yes? Okay. Sang, maybe.. But moving on.
His name is Nothing, care for him and he will bring you luck. That's in my head a lot too. I think I heard it elsewhere before the book. But maybe not. I wrote it on Haley's birthday card, even. I drew her The Birthday Wishing Cow who is holding a little sign and it says, Love him and he will bring you luck. No one else at the party had read the book, so they thought I was clever. Either that, or they liked my little cow. Moo.
That doesn't sell its soul for self-esteem. Enough of that. *next*
I wanna be wanna be wanna be wanna be pretty.
Molly was a good girl
And she knew the reasons why
So when she went back in the bathroom
She would never come outside
She's a good girl and it felt great to be a liar
Have I talked about the ear heat before? (molly-molly-molly-molly-molly...) I get this random thing with my ear, usually my right, where it just feels like it's on fire for no reason. Like now. It pisses me off, so excuse me while I put some water on it... *on hold music*
That didn't help, really.. I think it pisses me off most because of how irrelivant it is. It's not as if it's infected, or I'm blushing, or anything, it's just putting all the heat in my body to my ear. Hate, hate hate. *fidget*
You lose it just to find it and as you walk right by it you forget how you got there and why you never meant to stay and I watch you waste away and I won't fake another day and if one truth leads to you to find i still won't believe in your reasons why just don't believe in why you love her you need her to feel is to believe her.. you just can't believe you've got it and I can't watch you waste away and I won't beg you still to stay and if one truth leads you to find I still can't believe in your reasons why.. i couldn't watch you walk away and not forget it I couldn't watch you turn to stone and just regret a single day not a signle day if I lose you would you find me or would you walk right by me the soul and the spirit each have got their own limit and I can't waste another second living in hell like it's some kind of heaven and if one truth leads to another isn't there one I can uncover there is a woman that I will not discover it's my turn to discover.. i won't waste a single second living in hell isn't my idea of heaven if one truth leads you to find I still won't believe in your reasons why if one truth leads to another isn't there one we can uncover and there is one that we cannot discover it's the right time it my time it's our turn to discover
It's hard to type in speed to singing. Luckily it's not fast. *next*
My fucking ear..
Imagine me and you I do it's only right to think about the girl you like.. and.. this one's too fast for me.. so happy togetherrrr I can't see me loving no body but you for all my life..
*next*
This one's not too bad, I think.. *waits....* Long intro, man.. hummm.. okay, i think.. The light that's in your eyes like everyone wants it to be well can't you see that it must be this way who knows whose wrong or right just as long as your here tonight just like my mother taking all my likings away when nobody's watching i missed the last song i blame myself for just standing ethere too long i missed the last song I missed myself for just standing there.. i missed the holidays i miss my best friend cheap cigar stupid kids and movie stars and just like my father taking my likings away when nobody's watching us..
That song used to make me really sad, and now nothing.. Hmm.. It's oddly too fast for me to type it though.
let's try.. look i'm standing naked before you don't you want more than my sex i can scream as loud as your last one but i can't clame innocent oh god can it be weather oh god why am I here if love isn't forever and it's not the weather hand me my leather i caould just pretend that you love me the night would lose all sense of fear but why do i need you to love me when you can't hold what i hold dear oh god could it be the weather oh god why am i here if love isn't forever and it's not the weather hand me my leather.. i almost ran over an angel he had a nice big fat cigar innocent he sad you're alone so if you jump you best jump far oh god could it be the weather oh god why am i here if love isn't forever and it's not the weather... oh god could it be the weather oh could it's all very clear if love isn't forever and it's not the weather hand me my leather
that one's not too fast. pretty sad, though.
i can't even understand this one.. choke something...? figure it out still wish you were here i am breaking down am breaking.. something... you give me the wings to fly i am breaking down.. don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane.. don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane.. it's impossible for us to.. something.. okay, *next*
Let's try.. Long intro again.. Hummmm... okay, here we go.. there's nothing you can say nothing you can do nothing in between you know the truth nothing left to face nothing left to lose nothing takes your place when they say you're not that strong you're not that weak it's not your fault and when you climb up to your head up to your place i hope you're well.. nothing left to prove nothing i won't do nothing like the pain i feel for you nothing left to hide nothing left to feel i am always here when they say you're not that strong you're not that weak it's not your fault and when you climb up to your hill up to your place i hope you're well.. what you want what you lost what you had is over
That song used to make me really sad too. I don't know if it's meant to mean what I think it does, but for me, it's very disturbing.
Moving on.. Does anyone actually know these songs? I'd hope so. Either way, it's just a ramble. See how fast I can really type, and still listen to the lyrics over my loud clik-clak.. *next*
ooh.. This one's slow.. but, actually no. Too much screaming fits.. Ooh this one's sorta fast.. maybe.. not.. okay, moving on. and you open the door and you step inside inside our hearts now imagine your pain is a white ball of healing light.. hehe, just kidding. This is your life, good to the last drop doesn't get any better than this this is your life and it's ending one minute and a time this isn't a seminar this isn't a weekend retreat.. right, moving on..
in the excat same way that they never did.. when your healing powers kick in.. i'll be working right.. oi... but this work now the way it once did and won't keep it up even though i would love to once i know who i'm not i'll know who i am i know i won't keep playing the victim..
ooh.. *drools* music video break.. I'd type it too, but, ya know, I don't speak german.. uhm.. bang bang. ;) Okay, there it's over. God I love that song and that video. The song kept me sane while I was trying to sleep in Florida and the rest of the people in the car felt it a better idea to make animal noises. Fucking hell.. I put my md player on as loud as it went and didn't switch any of the songs, even the ones I'm kind of embarassed for owning. Not in the way that they're bad, or old, but in the way that they sound like people fucking. Namely, many MSI songs and whatever that sexy techno song was called.. Sexy Fire Dance, or something.
Fuck, ya know when you stare at lights and then get those blue blocks wherever you look after. I got those and it's making me really dizzy when I type.. *wobble* And they're stipres too.. What did I look at with stripes..? I haven't a clue, but whatever.
Anyways, I just pretended to be sleeping so I wouldn't have to. I pretend like I'm asleep a lot so I don't have to respond to people. Then when my disk finished I went to turn it on again and they notice me get up, so they had the nerve to tell me that it was on too loud and they could hear it through my headphones. Well, fucking, duh. And I could still hear your conversations.
Not that I'm bitter.
I'm gonna try not typing for a sec and see if that makes the dizziness go away. *hold music*
If I see one more icon saying, but why is the rum gone, you're all getting it. Even though probably not because this is the computer and I actually hate when people make threats over the computer, but basically it means i'll lose it.
Oooh.. I.. uhmm.. think this song's on english.. Ah crap! I haven't downloaded the new Naruto yet.. Ooh english! Don't cry cause you're so right, cause you will hate yourself in the end. Yeah, that's all I can make out.
Now remember, it's better to look good than to feel good. And I look good. Damn, I was gonna end with that, but I still can. This whole thing's random, anyways. It was in my head, eventhough I've never seen the skit, but I hear things. Oh, I do.
*sob* There's no seeds left.. The mother wants me to delete some more videos too. I shall.. Eventually.. Oooh. The dizziness went away. Yay!
*next* uhmm.. hmmm.. this may be too fast too.. Okay, no, next. everybody wants something for you.. just right for the picking..
Okay, let's try this.. I'll fail, but lets' try. Never was a cornflake girl thought it was a good solution hanging with the raison girls she's gone to the other side giving us the old heavehoe things are getting kind of gross and i go sleepy time this is not real this this this is not really happening you bet your life it's a.. something....... she knows what's going on seems we got a... all the sweet tears are gone gone to the other side... they must have paid her a nice price... this is not real this this is not really happening you bet your life it is you bet your life it's a peel.. or.. something.. and the man with the wollen coat thinks he knows so much and the man with the wooden gun thinks he knows so much..
Okay, next. hahahhaa.. no.. but.. okay, let's see.. *long intro.....* hello my love i heard a kiss from you red magic satin.. all through the morning rain i gaze the sun doesn't shine rainbows and waterfalls run through my mind in the garden i see... pretty music i hear so happy and loud.. feel sunshine.. if you arrive and don't see me i'm gonna be with my baby i'm free flying all over the sea.. with velvet roses.. a present from you strawberry letter 22 the music plays a setting for a few..
Okay, that's so much for that one. I can't type anymore, but still I do. Yay.
Wait.. if everything's going great do you remember a day to tell if someone should wish you well then there's a narrow chance all i want from you my dear friend i've already got i can show you i could show you how and you say you got that feeling again it won't be long enough and may never end and i know you say you got that feeling again it won't be long enough but it may never end.. wait.. i thought i had something to say i wil remember someday the faith found you buckling under the weight and you thought you relxed and all i got from you my dear friend i don't even want i could show you how and you say you got that feeling again it won't be long enough but it may never end i know you say you got that feeling again it won't be long enough but it may never end i know i know it may never end.. follow your answers but you look so bitter who are you.. famous important don't you stop... all i wanted from you is all forgotten for you and you say you got that feeling again it won't be long enough but it may never end i know you say you got that feeling again it won't be long enough but it may never end i know i know it may never end i know i know it may never end i know i know it may never end
Ha! Get it, deal with it. Bleh!
Old man turned 98.. no, next. Okay.. what's with the long intro.. achem....... i live to hear you say goodbye i don't know why i hang around you... no, next. HA! Doubtful.. Maybe.. Let's see, shall we? The fastest man in the world fast asleep at the wheel nobody wants to be alone so how did i get here when i look at you i see him staring through awake and a smile cause he's been inside of you is he all the things you tried to change me into..
No, next. Okay. I confess it's all true I'm a mess what a fool now what still i do i need your help to get up from my knees i can't seem to see the forest full of trees as i wait in my silent misery all i ask is please forgive me now she knows me now she knows me but she wants me to be someone i can't be but she wants me she needs me she wants me she loves me i need your help to get up from my knees cause i can't seem to see the forest full of trees as i wait in my silent misery all i ask is please forgive me shattered now you see the sign cause i'm left behind fall between the cracks you left behind now you're out of time.. what a shame i'm to blame what a shame knowing i'm to blame.. i need your help to get up from my knees cause i can't seem to see the forest full of trees and as i wait ibn my silent misery all i ask is please forgive me..
I can be as humble as the next guy or I can't make you crumble from the inside i can be every nasty thing you ever creamt a man could be.. cause they all fall down..
SR-71 owns me..
This one's fast, but I think I can do it... Maybe.. not.. *achem* For the minute she started talking she was different from the rest but I didn't hear her talking i was staring at her chest wish i woulda listened cause i think i woulda seen the signs now it's been a couple months and i can't take another word she's been pushing every button she's been pushing every nerve i've got something she can swallow but it sure as hell is not my pride (HA! I love that.. XD) yeah I know it's a waste of time, soon i'll run out of lies she'll just haveta hear the truth instead everyday i'm gonna make her cry to the moment that we say goodbye i'm gonna make her wish she was dead..
Okay, this one's too hard. Haha. I don't really wanna talk so I tell her that I'm doing fine.. Yeah I know it's just a waste of time.. *hummms* i love this song. I'm gonna make her wish she was dead. I'm going crazy she won't let go. already told her she's miss right now i wish she was miss yesterday...
*next* You know I used to be such a nice boy. *shake-shake* I love that part.
Last night I had a dream.. About everything.. It made me smile.. It made me scream.. We should take this slow cause I can't let go when it feels so good to feel this.. feel this low. *slow song. Ha!* I stumble but she sees all waiting for me to fall obcessing over her but it's nothing personal we should take this slow cause I can't let go but it feels so good to feel this low and we'll take our time to tell eachother's lives in a world so much brighter if Paul were still alive.
Isn't he? I don't know these things, but I think so..
Hahaha.. Ha.. Haaaa.... It's hard to take away a world full of people you can.. something.. but i see your true colours shining thru i see your true colours and that's why i love you..
Right, shutting up.. Truuuuuue colours..
Okay, not too bad. I recommend getting your heart trampled on by anyone i recommend walking around naked in your living room swallow it down it feel so good swimming in your stomach wait until the dust settles you live you learn you love your learn you cry you laugh you lose your nerve you scream you learn i recommend biting more than you can chew to anyone i recommend sticking your foot at anytime feel free hold it down hold it up wait and see when the smoke clear you cry you learn you lose your nerve you bleed your learn you scream you learn wear it out melt it down the firetrucks are coming up around the bend you live your learn you love your learn you cry you learn you lose your learn you bleed your learn you scream you learn you breathe you learn you choke you learn yoy laugh you learn you choose you learn you live you learn
Oh, I know this is all pointless. Feel free to delete me from your lists if you like. I'm sorry, but I don't care who reads about me at the moment. Or the lack of me.. Whichever. I don't force anyone.
Baby's born on the bathroom floor.. you got your prom dress on when they ask you say it's not... no.. nevermind
Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide voices trapped in yearning memories trapped in time the night is my companion and solitude my guide would i spend forever here and not be satisfied and i will be the one to hold you down kiss you so hard i'll take your breath away and after that wipe away the tears just close your eyes dear.. thru this world i stumbled so many times betrayed trying to find an honest.. oh you speak to me in riddled and you speak to me in rhymes my body aches to breathe your breath your words keep me alive and i will be the one to hold you down kiss you so hard i'll take your breath away and after that wipe away the tears just close your eyes dear.. Into this night I wander this morning that I drip another day not knowing of the path i fear to tred thru the see of waking dreams i follow without pride there's nothing stands between us here that i won't need tonight and i will be the one to hold you down kiss you so hard i'll take your breathe away and after that wipe away the tears just close your eyes dear i'll hold you down..
I find that song very sad too. I have an odd angst metor, I think. I also don't know which breathe is breath. What was that thing.. Hmm.. It was, it's hard to tell which witch is which, but I don't remember what it was from.. Ah, fuck.. I remember I thought it was funny, but I can't think of where I would have... Oh, yes! Got it! The Diamonds manga. That's a pretty manga. *purr* I think that's where it's from, at least...
I love my mommy cause she fucked my dad.. right, no.. haha
I'm your problem nooowww...
This song is pretty, but I can't understand it.. I heard bowlingball... looking for a savior.. beneath these dirty sheets.. just what got me is.. why do we crucify ourselves..
On my way up north up on the ventura put back the hood and i was talking to ya and i knew it would be a life long thing but i didn't know we could break a silver lining..
One could tell by how he walked that he drank more than his share.. two young and lovely girls just happened by one said to the otehr witha twinkle in her eye see that sleeping scotsman so strong and handsom built i wonder if it's try what they don't wear beneath their kilt.
Lad I don't know where you been, but I see you won first prize.
Right..
Is this the real life is this just fantasy caught in a landslide no escape from reality open your eyes look up to the skies and seeeeeeeee i'm just a poor boy i need no sympathy cause i'm easy come easy go little high little low anyway the wind blows doesn't really matter to me mama i killed a man put a gun against his head pulled my trigger now he's dead mama life has just begun but now i've gone and thrown it all away mama didn't mean to make you cry if i'm not back again this time tomorrow carry on cause nothing reeally matters too late my time has come send shivers down my spine body's aching all the time goodbye everybody i've lost it all gonna leave you all behind and fade too mama i don't wanna die sometimes i wish i'd never been born at all.. i see a little sillohette of a man... thunder bolt and lightning very very frightning me.. i'm just a poot boy nobody loves me he's just a poor boy from a poor family spare him his life from this monstrosity..
I miss Evangelion.. *sigh* mama mia let me go belezabub has a devil put aside for me.. so you think you can stone me and spit in my eye so you think you can love me and leave me to die ohhhh baby don't do this to me baby just gotta get out just gotta get right out of here.
Ryan and I once walked to the convenience store with Jake while singing this over and over, very loudly, very badly and me dancing as I went. the next day my art teacher told me what a cute dog I had and that she saw me walking him after school, but she didn't mention the singing, so hopefully she didn't notice. It might have been odd because I don't act like that at school.. Becaaause.. I know it's gonna be a long long time till touch down brings me around again to find I'm not the man they think I am at home.
Fuck, I love that time..
Noooo wanna smile again. I used to know the whole song off by heart. Haha. In english too. Hehe. Add it all together and live happy together.. or.. something.. haha I wanna watch that again. Maybe tomorrow seeing as I get home at 11. HA! Nooo wanna sell your soul nooo wanna smile again~ Something about chasing a silver wind.. Damn, I miss Gravitation. *sniffles* It makes me nostalgic.. No pun intended. I'm sorry, I'm lame. *hangs head in shame* I used to have so many more songs from it on my playlist, but I took em off because I got embarrassed when people heard me listening to them, eventhough I liked it. I don't like people listening to me listening to Japanese music. I feel stupid fro some reason. Rammstein's fine, though..
This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drwoned the whole world and while she looks so sad in photographs i absolutely love her when she smiles..
No sleep no sex for you from your old girl friend i was too weak to let you go and just jump in.. like the coldest winter I wam frozen from you i was weak before now you made me so numb I can't feel much for you anymore..
Ahh.. Damn nostalgia! *bangs head on keyboard* everythings reminds me of everything else. *sobs*
Placebo doesn't! Very much.. Fuck..
*kicks things*
And for one second I lost my head And for one second I wished that you were dead And for one second you wished that you were here all alone.. Hold back the tears that could fall from me.. And for one second I've lost my breath.. And for one second I charished what you said And for one second it seemed that I was here all alone.. Hold back the tears that could fall from me.. And for one second I understand And for one second my life was in your hands And for one second you wished that you were here all alone Hold back the tears that could fall from me Fall alone..
I'll find that music video one day.. I swear..
Oh, classical. This may be too fast... I also can't always understand what they're saying.. Shinji makes a good Micheal Jackson.. Hummms.. I've been in the shadows come into the light if you tell me i'm wrong then you better prove you're right selling our souls but i care about mine.. stop pressuring me stop pressuring me makes me wanna scream stop pressuring me stop pressuring me make wanna scream can't believe what I saw as i turned on the tv this evening i was disgusted all the injustice..
I can't spell anymore.. With such illusions don't it make you wanna scream..
Oh, another music vid. This one I won't be able to do, but I can look at the pretty pictures. Lookit it go.. Say goodbye on a night like this if it's the last thing that you do.. Oooh.. Pretty music video.. Why did I never download XTV? Maybe because the first few episodes were crap? Yeah, probably. but I didn't even let it get to Fuuma all crazy sadist seme-like. *S&M pervert* Ohhh I wanted to change you I wanted to chaaange.. Actually, as far as music video talent goes, it's not that good.. but the song isn't music video material... I wanted to be perfect like before. Let's put on that Raehysakhwksh one that was good. Yep.. Rahxephon..? Here goes the dancer don't listen to me for now.. This music video's so good. Too much time on their hands, but damn it's good..
See what you made me do. I must be dreaming for I don't fall in love.. Pinch me to wake me.. I'm losing it's all completely.. Sky high masgic eye don't stop i must be dreaming hold on to something just what you're waiting i don't fall in love i must be dreaming pinch me to wake me.. so long as I'm losing it's all completely.. Euphoria... I can take.. Lose it.. I must be dreaming hold on to something..
I may not understand what he's saying all the time, but fuck I love this song and I wish I could sing it too. I hope these people entered this vid into a contest or something to make it so intricate. And why didn't they sign it? I would love to know who made it so I could download more of their stuff.
I must be dreeeaming..
Snow can wait I forgot my mittens whip my nose get my new boots on get a little warmer.. i put my hands in my fathers coat i run off where the drifts get deeper sleeping beauty trips me with a frown I hear a voice that says you must learn to stand up for yourself cause I won't always be around.. when you gonna make up your mind when you gonna love you as much as i do when ya gonna make up your mind cause things are gonna change so fast all the white horses have been in bed i'll tell you that i always want you near they say that things change my dear..
Bah, that songs too sad for me too..
Here, happy song! Move a step closer you know that I want you I can tell by your eyes that you want me too just a question of time and we will be together and bet you'll be mine wanna say how i feel can't believe your here but I know that you're real know what i want and baby it's true.. dreams can come true look at me babe i'm with you
Damn, even happy songs are sad.. Maybe sweet-sad..
haha. Sexy fire song.. So suggestive.. so repetitive.. this is how it goes again let the music play wanna drink again and let my hands go everywhereGo through my hair you know we're so lazy you know it makes me crazy.. i wanna open fire.. and then sexy beat-ness.
Damn, I'll have this song in my head for the rest of the night, now. It's sad though, because they just repeat the same thing, but it's always good. That's good marketing!
Moving on. I've been typing for, like, two hours. Abou, what? Nothing. That's right.
Oh, interesting fact I forgot to mention in my DJ that I will later because I found it amusing in my own rights. This girl kept staring at me for a while, who apparently also thinks my voice changed, but I don't, but whatever. So, then i'm talking and she says, wait, look at me for a sec. So I do and she starts giggling oddly and looking out the window again, so I start bugging her until she tells me. So, apparently I look exactly like some Prince of Tennis guy and it was amusing her. I can't think if that's good or bad though because I haven't seen far enough into the series.. Hmm.. Ya know, I think I'll look for a picture now..
I was also actually having an argument with Lauren the other day about how I could pass off for a guy, if I tried. I win. Blehh! Maybe a femmy guy, but meh.
According to the ever reliable Quizzia, I am..
You're Ryoma!
(Prince of Tennis) Which Seigaku Regular are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
But that's not who she said.. Yay! A site with.. character.. profile.. Damn there's a lot of em.. But, I thought she said something start started with an I and there's only an Akira, and that wasn't it.. *looks around somemore*
Oh, who cares. It's a stupid show and they all look the same anyways. *kicks things*
Okay, maybe I'll stop now.
But remember, it is better to look good than to feel good. And I look good. (Told ya.) |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2004|08:27 pm] |
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| | Billy Talent - The Ex (2:41) | ] |
This is my happy song. |
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| Becoming One Of Those Nights |
[Feb. 19th, 2004|11:14 pm] |
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| | Bare Naked Ladies - Pinch Me (4:44) | ] |
There's a lot of times where you forget how much you hate people. And how much they make you want to cry. And then there's those times where you remember. And you can't figure out if you hate it more for being what it is, or yourself for the angst. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2004|09:45 pm] |
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| | three days grace - in front of me (2:58) | ] |
I need to bitch, and I figured I'd do it here. No special reason other than few people need to hear me bitch and few people read this. I also like this song (The Ledge), which is irrelivant. Except that I keep having to stop typing to go 'humm-bi-di-bum-bum-bum', but whatever. The point that I need to complain about (briefly, because I need sleep) is how much I hate my DA gallery. It's too me and that's why, I figure, it bothers me. You have to wonder if other artists look at their own work and feel trapped in it. It's hard to imagine someone so talented, like a lot of people in DA are, just staring at their gallery and wanting to bandage it up and make it all better. I figure that a character in your mind lives only once on paper and once it has a form. Now, it cannot move, so it is forever and only however you make it. Which is why it needs to be perfect or they'd be living their whole life out of the beauty they're meant for. It sounds stupid, but that could be because that's how I started thinking when i was, what, twelve? So it's bound to be. But it's a nice way of thinking about it. And you see these other works that are so beautiful and they just keep pulling it out of their ass like it's nothing when I can't make anything because anything that comes from me is shit. Because every piece of art you do has you in it. There's a theory that goes that we're all in caves, you see. And we can't see anyone else but hadows in this cave of ours. But then, how do we know which shadows are our own or not? This means that we don't really see people as individuals, but just fragments of ourselves, seeing as that's all we can truly understand. You can only write what you know. You can only draw what you know. So everything you draw reflects you- it's a diary. The problem may be that I don't know how to express myself and that's why all my art sucks complete ass. That or I have no talent. Pick and choose. But I just look at my gallery and I can't stand to look at it because it's too.. me. And all I see is me and it bores me and I want to take it all down. But I think I'm repeating myself by now. I just can't stand it. |
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| The Happenings of my Yesterday |
[Feb. 19th, 2004|03:33 pm] |
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| | Goo Goo Dolls - Big Machine (3:10) | ] |
I say, let's cross-post my day!
Amusing Icon Of The Entry
**arwen_elvenfair@LJ
First off, let's get the ending out of the way. I got the job. Blow me kisses. Love me. All that.
Now, I had two practice interviews with my co-op teacher and she went through my portfolio and all that. She wanted me to take out the Teen Angst one because it had a gun in it, but I didn't because I didn't think it would matter. She also made me more nervous than I had to be because she under-estimated how casual and laid-back real graphic artists are. Either way, it was good practice.
Then I went home at 11:30, got my stuff all ready and twitched and jittered as I waited for the mother who would drive me to the subway station so I didn't have to take the bus. Luckily, she can do that every Wednesday for me because public transit still worries me. She also gave me her cell phone so I could call her at work or call Steve, who offered to pick me up from the place because he was downtown with Lauren anyways.
So, I get to the subway and stupidly ask the ticket guy where to get the transfers for the street cars. He then points to a large red box that says TRANSFERS on the other side of the turning bars. But here's a nice thing. I was so nervous and excited about the interview and going downtown by myself that I acted like a moron a lot, but it didn't phase me from doing it again later. Few people seemed to mind. They were all really nice and helpful to me.
Anyways, I got my transfer, and wandered around for a bit before finding the train. Everyone seemed to be avoiding sitting beside anyone they didn't know, so there were all these middle seats empty, so I took one of those inbetween a young guy with a long beard and loud music, and a husband who was talking to his wife sitting a few seats away. I never really noticed how people avoid sitting beside people before because I usually go with lots of people and we sit where ever we can. The two beside me looked at me oddly at first, but then ignored me. I had brought my MP3 player to listen to and Lost Souls to read for the ride, but I didn't want to read close to people because I usually lean and move around when I read. And I didn't listen to my MP3 player because I didn't want to miss my stop- which was okay because I could clearly hear the music of the guy sitting to my left, and his wasn't all bad. So I just stared at the map for a while and then my hands and tapped my foot nervously, as I do and ignored the guy sitting across from me who kept studying the panoramic piece I brought for my portfolio that wouldn't fit into my bag. Several stops later Music Guy got up and left, so I moved over to his spot and put my bag and panoramic inbetween me and the husband and started reading and leaning into the sides of the seat and moving around, as I do when I read. I also tried not to laugh at some parts, but I managed to just grin. I figure no one was looking at me anyways, so that wouldn't matter. Actually, people probably were because what else do people do on the subway if they don't like the newspaper that's left lying around? Either way.
Many people changes later, I got off at my stop and followed the signs to where it said to get off to reach the street car that goes west, which was what I wanted. I went up, but me, being the ignorant person I am, didn't see the bus stop because it was around the corner to my left. So I wandered around the small area, waited for a little and then spotted the bus stop and went there. I asked a lady there if it was for the street car and she said yes and asked me which stop I wanted to go to and I told her and she told me which car to get on to. Apparently they don't all go where I want to, and she didn't know exactly where it was, so she said to take the long route one, or something, so I did.
The bus I went on was full, despite it being only 2:00ish, so I had to sit near the back, even though they advised me to stay at the front so the bus driver could tell me when I needed to get off, because they don't announce the stops like I thought they would. So I'm sitting there and leaning around trying to see the street signs and after many stops the old man sitting beside me asks where I wanted to get off and I tell him. He also doesn't know where that is, but he says to ask the bus driver. I figured I couldn't while he was driving, but he said it was okay. So I walk up to the front and wait until a stop and ask him where the stop is. He says that we passed it a while ago, gives me another transfer and tells me to go on the bus going the opposite direction and when to get off.
So I go across the street to the other stop and an old lady asks me if I'm getting in the bus, I say yes and she asks me to help her with her buggee, so I do and then ask the bus driver if they go where I need to and he says yes, but seems a little bit more annoyed than the other one did. Either way, I got a seat at the front where I could see the street signs and waited until I got to mine.
Then I ended up wondering around for a while before I realized how to get to where I needed to, but I figured it out.
Once I got there I told the receptionist who I was and she went in to tell the owner guy that I was meeting. Then she came back and said, "okay, you can go in, he's just with the dogs, but he's excited to meet you." Which all sounded random with the dog part, but I kind of ignored that because she had a pretty english accent. So i go in and these two little dogs run up to me and they're so sweet and cute that all my nervousness goes away. He asks me if I mind dogs and I say, oh, no no. So I ask what kind they are and they're both part poodle, but one's black and one's white. The white one is older and I don't remember what the other part is, but he's seven. Then younger one is a girl, I think, and part chihuahua, but I didn't see the chihuahua at all, and her name was Felix. She was very friendly, but wasn't listening to her owner very well. Anyways, he just asked me why I wanted to get into animation, what programs I knew, when I would be working, what I wanted to do and all that basic stuff. Very casual. And he told me about his trip to Miami and all this and seemed very nice. He asked me when I would start, I say the 24th and he says okay.
Then he gets a phone call, so I'm sitting in his office and half playing with the dogs and half trying to get them from play fighting because while they weren't yapping or growling like my dog, they seems pretty rough. But I guess that's how they always play. I just felt akward cause I didn't know if I was supposed to stop them or not.
When he got off the phone he went on his P.A and called a girl named Penny in because he needed to go and take the dogs for a walk or something. So I was introduced to Penny, who is the only other girl on staff, excluding the receptionist whose leaving soon or something. So Penny took me around and introduced me to everyone, told me what they did and they showed me what they were working on. All very nice, but I don't remember half of their names. I'm bad with names.
So after I got introduced to everyone she told me that I would get my own work station and they'd start me off with some tutorials for Maya and then I'd be able to help and they'd all show me how to do stuff. It sounds really good. I hope they don't think I'm a little loser kid, type of thing. They said they had another co-op student a few years back, but that he didn't know what he was doing and ended up being more of a 'coffee boy', so I hope that doesn't happen to me.
Then we went back to her station and I called Steve who said he'd be another half hour, so Penny showed me their demo reel and what stuff she was working on and answered my questions and it was all very cool. Actually, I felt a little stupid because I said cool quite a bit- which is odd because I don't say it that much. I say 'neat'. I also say 'berry interesting' on impulse now. It started out because it was funny and I love the Berry Interesting thing they do on Edge because I'm a loser, but now it's part of my perminent vocabulary.
So I thanked Penny for showing me around and I met Steve who drove me to where Lauren was and we were to take the subway home together after her appoitment. Her appointment happened to be in a scary, old, historical house that was turned into an office building, and I had to wait in this little waiting room with only two lamps and two closed doors that had "Do Not Disturb" perminantly bolted to the outside. So I spent that half an hour listening to my MP3 player and reading Lost Souls and ignoring all the banging that was going on upstairs and down. Apparently there were a lot of offices in there, but it still freaked me out.
We then got a ride to the subway station and went to her house until her dance class when I went home and she went there. And we got Swiss Chalet and couldn't go to CC because Ashley had too much homework, but we're going tomorrow. I also need to get Haley's birthday present for her party on Saturday. Fun times.
Thus ends my Happenings of Yesterday, for today.
Today, nothing interesting happened. |
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[Feb. 17th, 2004|07:07 pm] |
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| | Yuuki Hiro - Suicide Seaside (4:14) | ] |
I always knew I was talented enough to keep two journals. Especially seeing as I post everything in my dead one because I forgot to care if people there think I'm random. Oh, well. Maybe I'll post something relevant here, someday. |
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| Never Update And Then This.. |
[Jan. 30th, 2004|12:53 am] |
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| | Theory of a Deadman - Nothing Can Come Between Us (3:25) | ] |
i am open-minded!
How indie are you? test by ridethefader
You're pretty knowledgeable about music in general. You like indie music, sure, but that's only part of it.
You'll listen to any old shit as long as it sounds good to you. You're not snobby about music at all, you
just like what you like. How boring. Curiously, this makes you popular with the opposite sex.
Dude. I get Betty.. and Veronica? Doesn't get any better, does it? |
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